Updates:)

And so its life, Recently I've turned 19, many things happened n for all the things that has happened, Allah i'm grateful for everything. The girls in school made a mini-celebration which i appreciate much but seriously too rushing for me and therefore i give those idiotic black face and i admit. Thanks for making a last minute celebration. Fadz bought me a Necklace and a pair of earrings which is Tiffany & Co. Thanks Honey i appreciate so the very much. Its rare for a guy to buy such an expensive gift and i dont even wanna use it for school. But i will use it for Sis wedding. Miss chong and the rest made a celebration for  me too, thanks for the gift and prezzies. I don't really bother abt gifts but thanks anyway. Danny, Daniel, angie and jackie thanks for the Club ticketss!!! haha will go like a soon together ya! And my family brought me to PS cafe, it was awesome thank you very much:) I'm so grateful bcos it only on birthday i get to see the whole family gathered together.

Just in case you think i have forgotten you, NOT at all honey P. I miss you, i began to understand slowly why you left and i never ever blame you for that. I miss you badly and i have been having strange dreams lately, but to put that Aside, i'm 19 like finally. The saddest thing was for 6 consecutive years we have been celebrating each other birthday with a Slammed and A great Bashed but this year no one ever manage to be a great organiser like you!. I'm sad and i was permanently thinking about you. You always cross my mind. You made me bolder. You made me wiser. I love you with all my heart besties for federation.

Oh yes Honey P, my sis getting married on 3rd July 2011. amazing or what, she's finally getting married to the guy who is with her for 9 years. I'm elated for her and let's hope that her relationship is everlasting. I have an awesome brother in law:)

Apart from that i will moved on to studies, how's is it lately?
PROJECTS. Well this time is harder and i see so many conflicts in class which is ultimately annoying. I don't get why people are pushing living thing to the corner and drive them nuts. Everyone has feelings and attitude and sometimes we show it at the wrong time. Assumptions makes an Ass of You and me so never assume. Somehow my classmates is so disappointing. They're still back in 2004 where they took their PSLE and i reckon is time for people to be at 19, to use their thinking cap wisely and work with whoever that they're suppose to. After all LP has one Common goal which is to succeed and go poly's right? But how come like that ah? haiz. Complete and Submit, is it so hard.

I hope i can make it to Poly's like seriously. Allah pls guide me to the correct path. Till then Adios Amigo!:)

You + Me = FADZ IDA

Updates

Yes, so finally i get to meet up with Suen, Munyee, YZ, TZ, Liling :) love this girls...though is a short hangout i'm pleased to see how my friends succeed in their studies and taking up hobby or even a new skills. I'm happy for them. And finally i got a Job at robertson quay @ the merry men Kitchen+Bar. Have fun working there, colleagues are so so but not too bad la, i like the bar guy cos he's nice, humble and chef's are also nice there. Bad news i worked just infront of Mr Koh house:(

This holiday i shall say is meaningful as i was about to end this holiday i think there's is much to improved. I'm glad that some of my friends make a remarkable improvements on their GPA, and it only make sense cos they worked hard for it. For those still struggling always remember that's a light at the end of the tunnel. Perseverance is the key word.

Jas, Cheryl and Sob found job at Coffee Club, happy as they find and earn money during the holiday, unhappy when i see them eat instant noodles during their super short breaks it really breaks my heart. Heartless company:(

Fadz and me been having a rocky relationship, i know how awful it is ending a relationship. I shall not mention bout it, i'm sorry if i really hurt your feelings.



You + Me = FADZ IDA

Job:)

So back to holidays...awesome or what. I was currently helping my sister in her project and i finish up her history project already. Now i'm done. Wed is my interview for Mega Zip and Friday is for SDC. I hope to ace either one of the interview. I don't pinned hope on interview just hope i am convinced enough to prove it to them. Laure has kindly agreed to accompany me, thanks Laure. Tmr is P birthday, i'm feeling really sad that you're not here with me if not i would have certainly planned all the surprises for you. Haiz i'm uber sad and i just wish i can pour my woes to you. Each time i blog and post i will definitely cry thinking about you. I will be visiting you tmr honey, so wait up for me okay. Got to go for now. 

You + Me = FADZ IDA

Its holidays

I'm grateful and relieved that exams are over! weehees...so now i can hibernate and sleep all day long. Hmm not really, i don't really like to sleep too long also.
Still planning what to do for holidays,my holidays get abit bored without you. In fact, it really makes me bored.
I was planning to go for picnic? haha that's so silly of me?
hmm how about swimming? oh well i can always swim anytime i want?
Escape theme park? haiz so far and rides are limited?
USS? so expensive?

Seriously i don't know what to do during morning, holidays just started and i feel so bored. Guess  i'll just have to find a job. IMY p. If only you will come back, that will be my greatest birthday wish ever. For now. that's it. I hope to see some good results soon. Ta ppl!

You + Me = FADZ IDA

2 weeks passed

2 weeks passed, sorry readers i'm very emotional in my blog, hmmm yes you left 2 weeks already. I'll remember every monday. Its the day you left me, i was happy that i managed to talk to you for 2 hours on that last friday. I'm coming again this friday so be patient abit ya p. I miss you badly. Everyday, every minute, every hour i start thinking about you and how awesome you are as a friend. This is a song for you honey P, you know i'm taking my exams next week and i'm so nervous you know. I just hope i get to do well and you want to know something? i did well for OFA, and i'm quite happy about that. I know honey P you want me to do well everytime and in whatever i do. And honey P you must be really happy to hear this, the day you passed on, coach asked me to takeover you position and this is my medals to you. The gold is for you honey. Hope you are happy with it.


I got a song dedication, remember we used to sing this song during the old days, i cried if i heard this song. But you know i'll do anything for you.

Love you P
I miss you P
I hope you're doing okay on the other side
You + Me = FADZ IDA

Exams:(

Firstly its been 11 days since you left me, i'm going to visit you tmr. I'm happy about that, its feels like meeting you finally. I began to accept the fact slowly that you left me. Thanks Lijun, Jass, Fadz, Mun yee, Suen for your encouragements. I'm trying.

P, this sat is the Muay thai Finals, I hope to win for you. I'm doing it for you. I know how strong is our opponent but imy honey. You deserve this, i shall win it for you. I will do it for you. 11 days without texting you, its like talking to the moon but there was no response. I miss you like crazy again. Sometimes i stayed up late thinking its been a while, but its like a year. Here a funny thing P, on that day i suddenly came to think about you and i wanted to text you out to go out with me and then i told Fadz, "fadz hey faster eat, i'm going to go P house later and meet her later" Fadz:" huh?! What?! P house? Honey she left, you forgot? Pls accept the fact. See how much i miss you. I'm so obsessed to meeting you. Its like it never came across my mind this thing has happened. I'll spent my time with you tmr, but P it won't be that long cause i got to rushed off for Muay thai in the afternoon.

Hmmm...this happened all to fast. P i just took my OFA paper and it was hard but i managed to finish it all. 7 march is my exams, after exams fadz bringing me to pulau ubin just to unwind. I need it and i hope you'll understand. And also pls look after my friends and family. Allah pls help me to do well in my exams and make sure my friends have a smooth sailing time doing their examinations.

P, i will end here for now. I got to go. Mum's calling me and i have to study right now. I visit you tmr honey. In a mean while, i'll be thinking about you.








You + Me = FADZ IDA

Farewell my best best buddies:(

It was a sad Valentine for me, the reason why i am updating on this blog its because i don't ever want to forget this 14 feb day. Never Ever..you left me on this day and i shall not mention your name. The thing is i'm just worried if you will be fine alone, i don't mind joining you but dear i have my responsibilities n i hope you truly understand abt it. P....i love you...5 years of good friendship how can i forget that....but the question is why so fast? why do you have to leave me so fast? I'm so sorry that i didn't want to follow you that night. If that night i follow you., this wouldn't happen. I just had to blame myself. Your bf grievance was horrible and so was I. We all love you honey, you're a talented lady with a cool knowledge of everything. P......i'm writing to you cos i miss you, i love you, its indescribable. A day without you is like a year. Sometimes at this particular hour, i was waiting for you to text, but i know you want me to move on. I'm going to prove to my parents that i can do well for exams. I need your guidance, everywhere i go i feel you, infact i'm happy about that cos i know i have company which is you.

Sometimes deep inside i just wonder if anybody can replace your spot...till now none. But i'm grateful i got friends who are really concern towards me esp Lennard, Isk, Fadz, Lenny, Nan, Su En, Mun yee, Muzna,Jas,Jazz,Amsyar and many more. I hope you help me to watch them over and blessed them with good things. I could still remember the times where we joke and laugh like there is no tomorrow, the times when i fall down and i could rely on you to help me get back up. The times when you gave me those huge surprises. But you know one saddest thing in life is, i don't get to celebrate my 19 birthday with you. This are the things that i'm longing for someone to take over. But i just need you. Every night i couldn't sleep, i'm waiting for you to hold my hand, i'm waiting for you to bring me to your dream.

I've always been talking about you to my friends, why so sudden? taking you away from my life brings me my most weakest points, emotional breakdown, traumatize, and many more. You are my life, you light my life, you give me hope, you give me strength to carry on, you motivate me, you cheer me up, you drown my sorrows, you make me like your sister, you bring me to your family. Now its gone p....... why? why?
I pray for you, i pray for you that you rest in peace, i pray for you that you find joy on the other side, i pray for you that you will be fine on the other side, i pray for your soul, i pray for your kindness, i pray for your family.
I LOVE YOU.
I MISS YOU.
I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY.
I WISH YOU WERE HERE.
I WISH YOU HELD MY HANDS.

Honey P.....pls take care of yourself as i wont be there with you. I just wanna see you, hold you, touch you, feel you. You will always be in my heart forever and ever. Nothing can replace you. You will be my best i ever had. Thank you for everything. I will miss you forever.















You + Me = FADZ IDA