LPD project was a fruitful one:D

I'm really grateful for having group members that are so hardworking in putting this project a SUCCESSFUL one. I must thank FIDIANA, LENNY, SERI...SYAZ- THE TINKIPONKIE. Awesome. I almost cry. I couldn't held my tears back. When that granny pull my hands to give me a hug & kiss...i really aw that moment. I was speechless, lost for words. When i told the granny @9.30 we need to go back, she burst into tears, i felt guilty but if i should leave or not. I never see my grandma for ages, since primary school so when i get the warmth of her love it really aw me. I learnt alot, things that i couldn't buy & read from the book. I don't like to see people crying, esp the ones that i love. I know the agony that they've been through, how strong & noble a person can be. I really love that Granny, i don't know why i'm getting emotional, but right now i'm really crying. Tears just flow. I hate it when she said, she don't know when Allah want to take her soul away, i hate it. Pls, oh pls don't say that. I pray for your well-being. You are such a nice person, really a nice lady. Mak Cik Asiah. Thank you for everything. For your contribution towards making this project a successful one. You're really cool when we snapped photos with you, neither did you scold us for taking photos of your home. I'm grateful so grateful. I want to meet her again. Next month, we girls going to give her a surprise visit. Hopefully it will be a pleasant one. Dear Allah, thanks for bringing me closer to people who need more help than me, thank you for proving the best of my ability, Thank you for giving me a chance to fulfill her wishes during the project. Thank you for making me run this project smooth & safely. I want to experience this all again, and this time. I want my whole class to feel the warmth of an elderly which i don't think you can ever feel, buy, or sell.


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I miss my past.

I never LOVE someone so deeply before.  I remember the 1st day of school when i 1st saw you. That is the moment i've been waiting for. To be with you. Yes to be with you. I'm grateful that you let me love you. I know i'm not your best GF ever but i may be in future. You're my freAking best. I admit.

I really miss doing one thing that i really love when i was in NITEC. Playing ultimate frisbee with ethel. And also my team Phantom Disc. I love that team. I don't know why i quit that team, maybe i was just being harsh. I'm having mixed feelings about it. I wish i was playing for your team. Colin, i really let you down.











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JaVa DeToUr

Decided to post a short one. Been really Lazy to Blog, so many things to do, and the funny thing is i have yet to start on any of it. I really wonder what am i doing, online & i'm freaking lazy to do anything. Later got OFA, you guys called it holidays? oh wait is it my fault cos i need to come school for Remedial Lessons? sometimes i just wished that miss yani, use her time wisely & not let us surf the net. You see this is what will happened. I'm really worried about my exams. Normally i practice a lot, but not anymore. This 2 weeks holidays is really short, i was expecting it to be a fruitful experience. And now I'm starting to work @ Java detour Marina Bay Sands Casino. Yeah so to kill time. I want to make myself occupied. My work commence next week. I'm officially a BARISTA. Muahaha how cool. Love that job. Plus the owner really look up to a ITE student and i like that feeling. For those who want to visit me, feel free ya, i make for you all coffees!!  That's it for now. Off to bed!







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YOG With LENNY NURDIANA

YOG was awesome, the fireworks & everything sort of satisfy me. Me & Lenny break fast there too!!!Break out of virgnity, i first time break fast at the stadium. The feeling was total discomfort but however i have to thank Fidiana for her tickets, without that tics, i don't think i get to feel that kind of performance & experience. Pics are all in Facebook. Blogger takes time to upload. Fun, snap here & there till my camera states"battery exhausted & then start to do its own countdown".
Saw my classmates holding those country flags, oh well they look so tiny from the dark blue seating sector. It was kindda messy but who cares, you know what i mean, everything there is so loud













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All this while i knew it will happened

I know I may not be the perfect friend for you. I know I'm harsh sometimes, rude & make you upset. This is me...is hard for people like you all to get use. My forte, don't be too close to Petty people. Yes, i throw tantrum in the morning without realising it. I can't be close to you guys, i might hurt you. I'm like a cactus, born with thorns & twicks. I want to apologized for the mistakes that i've made. In some part of the 4 months i've hurt you without me realising. For those who knew me, take things lightly. For those who say things behind me, continue to do so, it may hurt me the slightest. But i know deep inside, this thing will happen, so it wasn't a dream. Jaslyn, so sorry if i got hurt you without me realising. Sorry. I have a life to continue, a family to take care. An education to continue, a career to support myself. Commitments for my future. I know this will all do me good in future. When you need help, i help you but never knew distance could affect the slightest of my feelings. Phyone, Fi & Syar & my mum thanks for being my listening year when i need one.


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HATE SCHOOL

Why am i always having seconds thought of quitting school, i wanna get rid of that. Seriously, like every hour all of a sudden, quitting school appear in my mind. Syar, you have really been a good person in my life. Phyone you are always there to subside my bitterness, the partying all night was great. My parents have been there when i need them the most. But i want this people to know without you guys i won't be here. Studying in secondary school was a chore to me, i don't want it to happen again. It is just so hard to keep up the momentum but deep inside i knew the adrenaline in my blood is running. I miss Su En, Munyee, Averie, Wu Jing & Muzna. When is the 6 ace stars gonna meet? Su En, Mun yee& Muzna is Poly. Averie in Philipines & Wu Jing in Australia. I miss you guys so Hard. I'm hard up to tell alot of things to you. My beverly hills friends jackie, hannah, alan, harry, paul, seong jin & jodie. I promise to meet up with you guys soon ya!!! I know i've been rejecting all your invitations and party. Not forgetting my ite nitec friends Mas, Rais, Sathish, Aisyah, Karen, Sya you guys also asked to me numerous times to go out. One of the main reason i'm stuck is bcos, i got so many commitments. Muay Thai competition is next week, tue-sat. Choir competition is on the 21st, then i got my interact club. My band in Singapore Winds symphony, i need to prepare the pieces- flight of the bumble SOLO.
Mon- S'pore Winds Symphony
Tues-Choir & then Muay thai
Wed-Muay thai second round
Thursday-Choir
Fri-Band
Sat-Recording & then Muay thai
Sun-Recording
Oh my!!! Then my recording on next sunday, have yet to practice. I need to study somemore for ILT. 6 commitments in  a week. Which teenagers does that? Oh ya i forget frisbee soon i reckon. Then i need to work soon, cause staying @ home is so boring. I swear plus it makes me gain weight. My ITE buddies are busy with YOG, i'm busy with other things. Wonder when FAMILYC is going to hang out & camwhore??
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How i wish i could turn back the Time...

In Life you have too much mistakes, too much that it is actually eroding part of your brain, your mindset & your heart. How sad is that? I told myself umpteen times to braced myself, be a stronger person. I have to put up a fake smile,laugh daily just to make myself contented. What is wrong with me?? Soon i will be having primary school gathering & the saddest thing plus the most demoralising thing...all my primary school mates are in JCs & Polys. How??? Shit you la Ida!! Last time secondary don't want to study properly! Play & Play & Play. Now you upset for what??!! I Wish i could turn back the time, study properly...go sec 5 then poly. My friend in FB added me, so i accepted & then i post his wall how are you doing? He didn't reply. What the _ _ _ _ . Then ok its fine, then his friend from JC ask him how is he doing, and then he reply as if there is no tommorrow. Bloody _ _ _ _.

I kept telling to myself, i have so much mistakes that it actually takes maybe 10 years for me to repent. I wish i could have not done those mistakes. I was wrong. I should have study hard. Now study hard also Higher Nitec Cert!! The rest all Diploma while i'm still doing Higher Nitec. How sad it is?

If it happens one day, i was caught up with problems...will you be there???
If it happens one day, i quit upon myself...will you be there???

2 years pls make it pass fast. Allah pls help me to find a solution to settle my worries & issues.


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Pls don't put an end for this

Cheryl say her face so Cock in FB but i think this pic is Georgeous.

The story tells it all

The Charlie's Angel

At Clementi...

I miss how we are so close to the DO RE MI

You Girls are my 3rd Fucking Best!!!

Love Cheryl old hairstyle & Jassy

The Act Cute girl!!

Firstly i Admit. I pon school again & i'm not happy about this. Went home so late due to choir plus my house far from school, that is the most annoying part. I need to change 3 times!@##$%^&*how annoying right!!!

I have a confession to make for my cliques in school. DO you all realise we are drifting so far apart. Cheryl i know you upset about Lenny about LPD project. I can understand babe, plus i'm so sorry if i have not been to help you, cheryl. Maybe lenny has issues with how we are going to organise it. Jas & Demi, seemed like i'm ignoring you. Am I?? We used to be so close & i miss the times how i disturb you Jas, kept fake2 promise that i'll never do it again. Demi, so sorry if i didn't buy for you birthday present. I was busy with my commitments. I didn't even do anything for you. So kindda upset & i treat you only $0.80 at co-op. Sorry ya!! Will do something for you quick. Cheryl its been ages since we go out together, we used to hang out with Sobbina during holidays. I really appreciate the times we had together.

I hope we won't put an end to our friendship. I want the Adrenaline running non-stop. The endless fun & camwhoring we used to had to continue. And guys pls focus more on your studies okay. Stop FBking all the time. ILT coming up soon & BEV test. Ace for A ya!!!:) I'm here to help if you need me. I got notes also for ILT, ask if you need.

SWIMMING!!!

In a while we going to have swimming lessons!!! So excited about it...actually not really. I got so much things to do anyway. Plus today is my 2nd day of CCA!!! Excited or not. Anyway i pon school alot of times bcos of sickness & stuffs. Maybe i also pon for tmr. Tmr got BEV test, and i'm freaking unprepare. After all the problems i have to faced on my own. This sucks big time. I hope i can overcome everything. Ya allah ya tuhan ku, pls make me strong just for this time. I really need you to guide me the path.

G Double O Morning People

Woke up early hur today, well my mum asked me to accompany her to Chinatown, i was just to lazy to go. But she didn't complain. So here i am lying down using lappy. I could have slept alittle bit longer but she woke me and now i can't get back to sleep. Not coming to school tmr,my leg injury is preety bad, looks like i'm on a 4 days, 4 nights holidays at home sweet home resort. That feelings is awesome. Stay at home, and do my own revision. Stared at the 4 walls. Eat chocolates bars. I miss PHYONE!!! XOXOXOXOXO
Plus not just PHYONE!!! I miss the 8 wonderful girls who always filled my school days with laughter and contentment. SERI, LENNY, FIDIANA, SYAZ, CHERYL, DEMI, FISH, JASLYN.
You babes are IRREPLACEABLE.
Hmm, today i'm going to go SWIMMING , JUST Like BLURP BLURP!!
Alright TA~

I think i need to fill the vacant hours i have to be with you. I think you are special to me. I think you're the best i ever met. I wish you were here to see the best and proudest moments of me. I wish i had spent more time with you. I wish you i could learn how to cherish you as much as i cherish my close ones. I wish you were here right beside me gazing at the stars and making wishes together with me. I wish i love you more. I wish i had more money so i could make a difference and fulfill your wishes. I wish i could make you more proud. I wish i know what's happening to your feelings to make you extra happy. I don't want to see you shed any more tears i don't want to see you cry because of me. I love you though daddy have not been around to make me smile, you know best how to cheer me up. I want to spent more time with you. You're the best mummy ever!!! You cooked delicious food for me, find the things that i've misplaced, treat me to good, wearable clothes. I know sometimes you are angry over my actions, i wish i was a better daughter and i'm sorry for what i've done. I'll listen to you more. I want you to know deep inside me heart how great you are. I want to tell the whole what awesome mother you are. At some moments you feel like killing me but i know you don't mean it and always there are some ways which you redeemed it. Love you MUMMY!!!MAK!!!MOTHER!!!IBU!!!