2 weeks passed

2 weeks passed, sorry readers i'm very emotional in my blog, hmmm yes you left 2 weeks already. I'll remember every monday. Its the day you left me, i was happy that i managed to talk to you for 2 hours on that last friday. I'm coming again this friday so be patient abit ya p. I miss you badly. Everyday, every minute, every hour i start thinking about you and how awesome you are as a friend. This is a song for you honey P, you know i'm taking my exams next week and i'm so nervous you know. I just hope i get to do well and you want to know something? i did well for OFA, and i'm quite happy about that. I know honey P you want me to do well everytime and in whatever i do. And honey P you must be really happy to hear this, the day you passed on, coach asked me to takeover you position and this is my medals to you. The gold is for you honey. Hope you are happy with it.


I got a song dedication, remember we used to sing this song during the old days, i cried if i heard this song. But you know i'll do anything for you.

Love you P
I miss you P
I hope you're doing okay on the other side
You + Me = FADZ IDA

Exams:(

Firstly its been 11 days since you left me, i'm going to visit you tmr. I'm happy about that, its feels like meeting you finally. I began to accept the fact slowly that you left me. Thanks Lijun, Jass, Fadz, Mun yee, Suen for your encouragements. I'm trying.

P, this sat is the Muay thai Finals, I hope to win for you. I'm doing it for you. I know how strong is our opponent but imy honey. You deserve this, i shall win it for you. I will do it for you. 11 days without texting you, its like talking to the moon but there was no response. I miss you like crazy again. Sometimes i stayed up late thinking its been a while, but its like a year. Here a funny thing P, on that day i suddenly came to think about you and i wanted to text you out to go out with me and then i told Fadz, "fadz hey faster eat, i'm going to go P house later and meet her later" Fadz:" huh?! What?! P house? Honey she left, you forgot? Pls accept the fact. See how much i miss you. I'm so obsessed to meeting you. Its like it never came across my mind this thing has happened. I'll spent my time with you tmr, but P it won't be that long cause i got to rushed off for Muay thai in the afternoon.

Hmmm...this happened all to fast. P i just took my OFA paper and it was hard but i managed to finish it all. 7 march is my exams, after exams fadz bringing me to pulau ubin just to unwind. I need it and i hope you'll understand. And also pls look after my friends and family. Allah pls help me to do well in my exams and make sure my friends have a smooth sailing time doing their examinations.

P, i will end here for now. I got to go. Mum's calling me and i have to study right now. I visit you tmr honey. In a mean while, i'll be thinking about you.








You + Me = FADZ IDA

Farewell my best best buddies:(

It was a sad Valentine for me, the reason why i am updating on this blog its because i don't ever want to forget this 14 feb day. Never Ever..you left me on this day and i shall not mention your name. The thing is i'm just worried if you will be fine alone, i don't mind joining you but dear i have my responsibilities n i hope you truly understand abt it. P....i love you...5 years of good friendship how can i forget that....but the question is why so fast? why do you have to leave me so fast? I'm so sorry that i didn't want to follow you that night. If that night i follow you., this wouldn't happen. I just had to blame myself. Your bf grievance was horrible and so was I. We all love you honey, you're a talented lady with a cool knowledge of everything. P......i'm writing to you cos i miss you, i love you, its indescribable. A day without you is like a year. Sometimes at this particular hour, i was waiting for you to text, but i know you want me to move on. I'm going to prove to my parents that i can do well for exams. I need your guidance, everywhere i go i feel you, infact i'm happy about that cos i know i have company which is you.

Sometimes deep inside i just wonder if anybody can replace your spot...till now none. But i'm grateful i got friends who are really concern towards me esp Lennard, Isk, Fadz, Lenny, Nan, Su En, Mun yee, Muzna,Jas,Jazz,Amsyar and many more. I hope you help me to watch them over and blessed them with good things. I could still remember the times where we joke and laugh like there is no tomorrow, the times when i fall down and i could rely on you to help me get back up. The times when you gave me those huge surprises. But you know one saddest thing in life is, i don't get to celebrate my 19 birthday with you. This are the things that i'm longing for someone to take over. But i just need you. Every night i couldn't sleep, i'm waiting for you to hold my hand, i'm waiting for you to bring me to your dream.

I've always been talking about you to my friends, why so sudden? taking you away from my life brings me my most weakest points, emotional breakdown, traumatize, and many more. You are my life, you light my life, you give me hope, you give me strength to carry on, you motivate me, you cheer me up, you drown my sorrows, you make me like your sister, you bring me to your family. Now its gone p....... why? why?
I pray for you, i pray for you that you rest in peace, i pray for you that you find joy on the other side, i pray for you that you will be fine on the other side, i pray for your soul, i pray for your kindness, i pray for your family.
I LOVE YOU.
I MISS YOU.
I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY.
I WISH YOU WERE HERE.
I WISH YOU HELD MY HANDS.

Honey P.....pls take care of yourself as i wont be there with you. I just wanna see you, hold you, touch you, feel you. You will always be in my heart forever and ever. Nothing can replace you. You will be my best i ever had. Thank you for everything. I will miss you forever.















You + Me = FADZ IDA

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Firstly Happy new year to everybody! Okay i know i kept this blog dead bcos i'm too busy for anything.'

Had a blast yesterday with the crazies. Went off @ 9.30 to meet phyone and then SHOPPING ON NEW YEAR EVE IS THE BEST SHIT! Went shopping @ Orchard Ion and then P.S till 5 then went to meet the fabulous chio bu's @ newton for DINNER! Dinner's awesome! Then head to HEEREN for B&J's! Yeah staffs over there like to stereo type! Too much Stereo on their ears perhaps. Oh wattever! Then head to flea market! Phyone and Fadz guess what?! I bought Ray Ban for $10.00 so not me! Hahaha... my previous ray ban cost $168.00. shit me. We head to MBS after that, chilled lepak, merepek, cakap kosong, camwhore and watch KATY PERRY !!! Haha. i mean fireworks! Had loads of fun plus its so tiring talking to gwneth! That crazy little evilious girl. Okay i'll let the pics do the explanation how i felt yesterday

I miss you load FUZZY come back fast honey:)

You + Me = FADZ IDA

love is so crazy and scary!!!

I have yet to get any off day for this week so looks like night life DUH!...went out yesterday night to TGIF after work. Sickening i have yet to go shopping!!!Went with Jackie and Laure!!! Eat till full then head to Harry's. Went to unwind. loves to sit down and talk to them. And!! i can't wait for Fuzzy to go out from hospital, this monday he's discharge!!! I swear i feel so fking awesome by then, feeling down. He is the only on can turn it up. I'm grateful for having fuzzy as the special person...hearts...like....lovee one and only you. Today work was SHIT, my body's been having this painful thingy but i managed to overcome this painful sharp pain. Haiz cannot Angss. Went out to Oosh, i managed to escape early from Work and JOYCEE is back, she bought this beautiful handphone keychain from BKK. Awesome and Thanks i appreciate it.

This week have been a dreadful one, so many things happened at a flash of time. I despise it but whom am i to stop all this. Maybe a lesson to be learn. I need holidays badly to just throw away the bowlines i had.
Human change but i've read in the book that is not wrong for human to change, everyone has their rights rite? somethings are just so hard to let go like the one that you love, the one whom you held hard when you need them, to see them gone just like that, how hard to face life, but he once told me not to be sad when your love one leave you cause god love them more than you and you have to take it positively cause everyone will leave this world one day, i'm scared when that time comes and i'm not prepare. I won't cry because i want you to leave happily. I miss you a lot. Indescribable is the word to mention to you. I love you for all the work that you helped my family i'm grateful for the effort, love, sacrifices that is priceless. Sometimes i got to learn the hard way to realise one mistake, my apology for that. Love you, Miss you badly. Its only 5 days you left but it feels like yesterday. I pray for you.

Friends- Nyom Nyom. There's no better or other way to go to school and enjoy joking and make friends along the way. I love the period where we all enjoy and laugh, it been quite a while since i did that. I hope this continues. From that incident, i learnt that i must love those who are still here and are those whom i met most of the time. Forgive and forget. I learnt that and i feel like i'm making use of my life properly. I hope things will work out right.

You + Me = FADZ IDA

Weekends BURNED

Fuzzy went into accident but thank god, he's fine. Due to that he cannot drive for 3 months. I hope things get better. I'll always pray for you dear.I shall not elaborate on it caused i'm feeling upset and remorseful about it.Therefore public apology i cannot make it to NAN'S deepavali open house. And i broke a promise. So sorry Nanthini. I was so so caught up during the weekends, visiting him off and on @ NUH. Fuzzy you looked cute with ur Pyjamas and you still can laugh about it.

So as usual went to work, nothing much happened, Michael last day today, so i brought him some gift and a hand made love, a last minute one. Hope he loves it. So did abit of camwhore here and there.
I really got nice assistant manager who helped me and guide along the way, therefore i'm thankful for his help.
Next week Joycee going Thailand!!! = I'm all alone @ night...sob sob. BUT got SHERYL...so not too lonely and Su En gonna's visit me. Awesome. I appreciate this grp of pals who are there by my side. I'm thankful. And today i went to Royce with George, the champagne chocolates are awesome, so bought some for Fuzzy and Betty....of course my dear lenny and phyone i brought macaroon and cookies for you tooo!!! Su en this wed i treat you okay my dear. I LOVE ROYCE..you get to eat chocolates and it just makes you happy.

That's it for today folkes...TMR gt SCHOOL!!


You + Me = FADZ IDA

Time for a Getaway.

Each time i looked at Happy family. I envy, i envy much. I wonder when will i have that feeling. When? when i about to die? It saddens me dramatically. I wish i had a happy family. Sometimes, my family find it hard to understand each other and then they will start quarelling with each other. I Hate that moment the most. I hate it when my mum and small sis had to break down because of that. My mum is under-going PMS. I rather go out everyday so that i can avoid that. It brings me down. I got a father who only thinks about himself, he doesn't bother about anyone in the family. A father who doesn't remember my birthday and stuffs. A father who does not bother me. I want a getaway. Far far away. It at least makes me happy and i can't wait for December holidays! I'm going Phuket with Fuzzy. It really helps me to unwind myself. Thanks for the air ticket. Love you much and always Fuzzy. I'm thankful for everything.

You + Me = FADZ IDA