love is so crazy and scary!!!

I have yet to get any off day for this week so looks like night life DUH!...went out yesterday night to TGIF after work. Sickening i have yet to go shopping!!!Went with Jackie and Laure!!! Eat till full then head to Harry's. Went to unwind. loves to sit down and talk to them. And!! i can't wait for Fuzzy to go out from hospital, this monday he's discharge!!! I swear i feel so fking awesome by then, feeling down. He is the only on can turn it up. I'm grateful for having fuzzy as the special person...hearts...like....lovee one and only you. Today work was SHIT, my body's been having this painful thingy but i managed to overcome this painful sharp pain. Haiz cannot Angss. Went out to Oosh, i managed to escape early from Work and JOYCEE is back, she bought this beautiful handphone keychain from BKK. Awesome and Thanks i appreciate it.

This week have been a dreadful one, so many things happened at a flash of time. I despise it but whom am i to stop all this. Maybe a lesson to be learn. I need holidays badly to just throw away the bowlines i had.
Human change but i've read in the book that is not wrong for human to change, everyone has their rights rite? somethings are just so hard to let go like the one that you love, the one whom you held hard when you need them, to see them gone just like that, how hard to face life, but he once told me not to be sad when your love one leave you cause god love them more than you and you have to take it positively cause everyone will leave this world one day, i'm scared when that time comes and i'm not prepare. I won't cry because i want you to leave happily. I miss you a lot. Indescribable is the word to mention to you. I love you for all the work that you helped my family i'm grateful for the effort, love, sacrifices that is priceless. Sometimes i got to learn the hard way to realise one mistake, my apology for that. Love you, Miss you badly. Its only 5 days you left but it feels like yesterday. I pray for you.

Friends- Nyom Nyom. There's no better or other way to go to school and enjoy joking and make friends along the way. I love the period where we all enjoy and laugh, it been quite a while since i did that. I hope this continues. From that incident, i learnt that i must love those who are still here and are those whom i met most of the time. Forgive and forget. I learnt that and i feel like i'm making use of my life properly. I hope things will work out right.

You + Me = FADZ IDA

Weekends BURNED

Fuzzy went into accident but thank god, he's fine. Due to that he cannot drive for 3 months. I hope things get better. I'll always pray for you dear.I shall not elaborate on it caused i'm feeling upset and remorseful about it.Therefore public apology i cannot make it to NAN'S deepavali open house. And i broke a promise. So sorry Nanthini. I was so so caught up during the weekends, visiting him off and on @ NUH. Fuzzy you looked cute with ur Pyjamas and you still can laugh about it.

So as usual went to work, nothing much happened, Michael last day today, so i brought him some gift and a hand made love, a last minute one. Hope he loves it. So did abit of camwhore here and there.
I really got nice assistant manager who helped me and guide along the way, therefore i'm thankful for his help.
Next week Joycee going Thailand!!! = I'm all alone @ night...sob sob. BUT got SHERYL...so not too lonely and Su En gonna's visit me. Awesome. I appreciate this grp of pals who are there by my side. I'm thankful. And today i went to Royce with George, the champagne chocolates are awesome, so bought some for Fuzzy and Betty....of course my dear lenny and phyone i brought macaroon and cookies for you tooo!!! Su en this wed i treat you okay my dear. I LOVE ROYCE..you get to eat chocolates and it just makes you happy.

That's it for today folkes...TMR gt SCHOOL!!


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Time for a Getaway.

Each time i looked at Happy family. I envy, i envy much. I wonder when will i have that feeling. When? when i about to die? It saddens me dramatically. I wish i had a happy family. Sometimes, my family find it hard to understand each other and then they will start quarelling with each other. I Hate that moment the most. I hate it when my mum and small sis had to break down because of that. My mum is under-going PMS. I rather go out everyday so that i can avoid that. It brings me down. I got a father who only thinks about himself, he doesn't bother about anyone in the family. A father who doesn't remember my birthday and stuffs. A father who does not bother me. I want a getaway. Far far away. It at least makes me happy and i can't wait for December holidays! I'm going Phuket with Fuzzy. It really helps me to unwind myself. Thanks for the air ticket. Love you much and always Fuzzy. I'm thankful for everything.

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UPDATES

Back to blogging, i had to cause FUZZY the WUZZY bear pestering me and don't know that i got blog fanatic.
I love my relationship life, thanks Dear for being there. Already missing you.

I love my all time favorite school bestie ENNIE SCREAMER. Thanks for all the help, we managed to stick it through the thin and thick and it seems like you're the only one in school who understands me other than Fuzzy. Of course the girls, but we just need bonding.

Updates:

Hmmm... Thursday Amazing Race? excited SO-SO la. Girls don't get me wrong. At first i was Excited!!! But then when i heard it was from the fitness, okay it became turned off. Those FT people always gt something up in their sleeves. That's why la.

Napfa next week...ooo lalalalalala. 2.4km....looking forward, neh not really. Im going to get burnt. Fuzzy Pls go jogging with me from Redhill to Pasir Ris. Hehes. Cheryl so sorry if i didn't head to the gym today, i need to do meetings for projects. Sorry some other day okay.

I want to thank my grp members for being patient, haha i know imma bitch but all i want for you guys is to excel and get A..let's do it baby!!...Syaz you're doing good as a new member, im proud of you. Nanthini Oh my AWESOMENESS. Haha, i always disturb you but you pull through my jokes and sarcasm...what more can i say. Thanks for doing the work on time despite your preparation for Deepavali. Lenny, thanks for helping me in my parts, i appreciate it so so much. Girls power is Awesome! Keep up the good work. Im sorry if i ever hurt you guys, you should know me i don't mean it for sure.

And of course the rest of the girls!!! Let's have a better forwarded cheerful relationship ahead!

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Seriously you must be Kidding

Time Check 2.21am.

What the hell am i doing right now when i'm supposed to sleep. Well i need to say this. Last 2 days me and Fuzzy went Queensway. This is funny. I was happily heading to the shop to collect the class t-shirt and then...kuang kuang kuang. The shop closed and burnt... i was seriously devastated. Its funny but at the same time disappointing. My girls and mates are hoping for the shirts even i am...we need it for the freaking projects. I just think October is full of sadness and disapointment, back in my home town Indo, people are killed bcos of volcano larva. How sad? In my work place, adeline and michael left how sad. Both of them are such nice colleagues to work with. And October, only if it was a fresh start for school and then quarrellings happened. I wish i had a fresh and a good start of November. I don't want it to happen again. Pls oh god. So yeah i got the letter from the Owner who is going to give us the refund and stuffs and i guess NO class T-shirts. Fuzzy wanted to sponsor from another shop but i said NO cause i hate to see bitches using the same shirts as me. Maybe there's one of the reason, all of the T-shirts got burnt. But its pretty sad bcos i want to see the girl putting on it with the Muay thai boxers that i bought. Haiz....so unfated. Getting the refund in 3 weeks time. Sorry LCrians...i didnt expect this to happened. Maybe it happened for a reason. 

Anyway, weekends was Shity but Halloween was Awesome with colleagues @ work, Joyce and Sheryl thanks for the company and Fuzzy thanks for the night out. I want to go out for a drink on deepavali....haiz stress ah....P to HYONE.... text me oiii....miss you loads, James and Peeps heading Harry's so do tag along. 

I want things to work out rite this time. Yes ah! Mon, Tue & Thurs OFF!!! I can go out!!! Fuzzy i blogged already. Nites and kisses to people from outside. Ta and Good night!!

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Happy 1st month anniversary.

Happy 1 month Anniversary Sayang!

I had the most wonderful anniversary ever, thanks for all the sweet gifts fuzzy.

Thanks for being there the moment when i need you, the times when i'm going to fall, I appreciate everything.

 26 Sept 2010. 

I hearts Fadzli Rani

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Ne-Yo - One In A Million

Song dedication to Fuzzy and My girls.
Thanks for everything. You guys are one in a million

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Hey peeps back from posting...I lost a friend. How do i feel? angry? devastated? broken-hearted?
Sometimes is like a replay, playing back in my head. All your actions. I'm all so sad but i want you to know i respect your decision, i have my own reasons for giving up on you. I going to put my head held up high, i won't be bothered with the comments you post on FB, like you said i'm no one important. After all i did to help you, i'm being called a mean bitch, how awesome is that. Is like a smack on my forehead. Thanks!

You ruined my Monday & Tuesday. I hope karma will hit you back on your forehead too. I better end this topic. Is stupid to talk about it.

Schools already re-open for 3 weeks how fast it that? And then i got surprises SO EARLY. 2 projects, 1 role-play, 2 shity problems held up in my head.
I hope i'm able to solve my problems, i don't want to think about it, I want it to VANISHED in thin air. Please, why is it still in my head. Feeling guilty but i shall not say it.

Haiz, today never come to school. Sick and i have major migraine acting up. I'm seeing double vision and doctor ask me to wear specs. I still can see without specs. I hate wearing specs.

Anyway Fuzzy thanks for cheering me up same goes for the girls. Thank you i appreciate. I hope this won't happen again. Fuzzy you are such a great boyfie, thanks for sharing my feelings and making me feel happy.












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Its all wasted

I knew you from the very started, our friendship and all...wasted.
I thought you knew me well, but it ended in the beginning... when it comes to this kind of situation, is always me who is to be blames...maybe i need to learn to self-pity myself first to be like you. Give you a chance, how many chances i give you already. You made me feel like i made a huge mistake a grave one. Forgive myself for my silly ethics. Is me or it is just you. One way to live life it to self pity yourself and love yourself before others.


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Cause i got Over you.

Everything is OFFICIALLY OVER. Hmm. how do i feel? better or worse? the truth is, it pains me to see me and him seperated. My feelings is still there, after 1 year 6 months of relationship and sacrifices, it meant the whole world to me.

My classmates are so curious why i get over it so fast, because i don't want to wait for another miracle to happened. I want me to do it not miracle. Fate brought us together. You make me smile and never make me cry. 3 weeks of relationship already. This 16th will be our 1st month anniversary. Excited? Neh not really, what matters is you. I appreciate those shoulders i cried on when i need it.
3 words to describe my feelings for you I LOVE YOU!. May i hope our relationship last forever and good luck in YOUR EXAMS!! those 3 words save my life. I don't like showing my status on FB, cause i think is crapped. So sorry Fuzzy:D just not the right time. But that doesn't mean i don't hearts you. Hehes.

Anyway SCHOOL REOPENED! GUESS WHAT! My time table sucks, i will prone more to inadequate sleep bcos of 8am schedule. Haiz and also end so late! After that work and fuzzy never fail to send me home. Thanks!

WORK- JAVA DETOUR
 How awesome it is to work for your passion on something, its has always been my dream of making good coffee to customers. I love it. My work is AWESOME and JOYCEE AND MIKE too. Cheryl and George the funny poly peeps always have some issues and bitchy notes to talk about. Love it. JOYCEE gonna put me in-charge night next week. Is that a good thing or a bad thing?

MOOD- HELL YEAH I SO EFFING TIRED
Work and study is both important, i'm learning to juggle so bear with me ya:D  I want to do well in both. I don't care about the lack of sleep. All i care is i want to do well in Career and Studies to be somebody in future. I've been going to work after school= so so so so tired but worth it!

LOOKING THIS ON BRIGHT SIDE

I want to be grateful for the little things and i HOPE Allah will give me a chance to live a better and fruitful life. My prioritise is studies and family but on the other hand work. I want to take little chances to be myself and have FUN with my babes in school and of course get back on track and chased after my 4.0 gpa in Nitec! though it sounds a bit impossible imma make it a little bit reasonable and put it as 3.7. You can do it WAHIDAH!








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LPD project was a fruitful one:D

I'm really grateful for having group members that are so hardworking in putting this project a SUCCESSFUL one. I must thank FIDIANA, LENNY, SERI...SYAZ- THE TINKIPONKIE. Awesome. I almost cry. I couldn't held my tears back. When that granny pull my hands to give me a hug & kiss...i really aw that moment. I was speechless, lost for words. When i told the granny @9.30 we need to go back, she burst into tears, i felt guilty but if i should leave or not. I never see my grandma for ages, since primary school so when i get the warmth of her love it really aw me. I learnt alot, things that i couldn't buy & read from the book. I don't like to see people crying, esp the ones that i love. I know the agony that they've been through, how strong & noble a person can be. I really love that Granny, i don't know why i'm getting emotional, but right now i'm really crying. Tears just flow. I hate it when she said, she don't know when Allah want to take her soul away, i hate it. Pls, oh pls don't say that. I pray for your well-being. You are such a nice person, really a nice lady. Mak Cik Asiah. Thank you for everything. For your contribution towards making this project a successful one. You're really cool when we snapped photos with you, neither did you scold us for taking photos of your home. I'm grateful so grateful. I want to meet her again. Next month, we girls going to give her a surprise visit. Hopefully it will be a pleasant one. Dear Allah, thanks for bringing me closer to people who need more help than me, thank you for proving the best of my ability, Thank you for giving me a chance to fulfill her wishes during the project. Thank you for making me run this project smooth & safely. I want to experience this all again, and this time. I want my whole class to feel the warmth of an elderly which i don't think you can ever feel, buy, or sell.


Me + You = IdaSyar

I miss my past.

I never LOVE someone so deeply before.  I remember the 1st day of school when i 1st saw you. That is the moment i've been waiting for. To be with you. Yes to be with you. I'm grateful that you let me love you. I know i'm not your best GF ever but i may be in future. You're my freAking best. I admit.

I really miss doing one thing that i really love when i was in NITEC. Playing ultimate frisbee with ethel. And also my team Phantom Disc. I love that team. I don't know why i quit that team, maybe i was just being harsh. I'm having mixed feelings about it. I wish i was playing for your team. Colin, i really let you down.











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JaVa DeToUr

Decided to post a short one. Been really Lazy to Blog, so many things to do, and the funny thing is i have yet to start on any of it. I really wonder what am i doing, online & i'm freaking lazy to do anything. Later got OFA, you guys called it holidays? oh wait is it my fault cos i need to come school for Remedial Lessons? sometimes i just wished that miss yani, use her time wisely & not let us surf the net. You see this is what will happened. I'm really worried about my exams. Normally i practice a lot, but not anymore. This 2 weeks holidays is really short, i was expecting it to be a fruitful experience. And now I'm starting to work @ Java detour Marina Bay Sands Casino. Yeah so to kill time. I want to make myself occupied. My work commence next week. I'm officially a BARISTA. Muahaha how cool. Love that job. Plus the owner really look up to a ITE student and i like that feeling. For those who want to visit me, feel free ya, i make for you all coffees!!  That's it for now. Off to bed!







Me + You = IdaSyar

YOG With LENNY NURDIANA

YOG was awesome, the fireworks & everything sort of satisfy me. Me & Lenny break fast there too!!!Break out of virgnity, i first time break fast at the stadium. The feeling was total discomfort but however i have to thank Fidiana for her tickets, without that tics, i don't think i get to feel that kind of performance & experience. Pics are all in Facebook. Blogger takes time to upload. Fun, snap here & there till my camera states"battery exhausted & then start to do its own countdown".
Saw my classmates holding those country flags, oh well they look so tiny from the dark blue seating sector. It was kindda messy but who cares, you know what i mean, everything there is so loud













Me + You = IdaSyar

All this while i knew it will happened

I know I may not be the perfect friend for you. I know I'm harsh sometimes, rude & make you upset. This is me...is hard for people like you all to get use. My forte, don't be too close to Petty people. Yes, i throw tantrum in the morning without realising it. I can't be close to you guys, i might hurt you. I'm like a cactus, born with thorns & twicks. I want to apologized for the mistakes that i've made. In some part of the 4 months i've hurt you without me realising. For those who knew me, take things lightly. For those who say things behind me, continue to do so, it may hurt me the slightest. But i know deep inside, this thing will happen, so it wasn't a dream. Jaslyn, so sorry if i got hurt you without me realising. Sorry. I have a life to continue, a family to take care. An education to continue, a career to support myself. Commitments for my future. I know this will all do me good in future. When you need help, i help you but never knew distance could affect the slightest of my feelings. Phyone, Fi & Syar & my mum thanks for being my listening year when i need one.


Me + You = IdaSyar

HATE SCHOOL

Why am i always having seconds thought of quitting school, i wanna get rid of that. Seriously, like every hour all of a sudden, quitting school appear in my mind. Syar, you have really been a good person in my life. Phyone you are always there to subside my bitterness, the partying all night was great. My parents have been there when i need them the most. But i want this people to know without you guys i won't be here. Studying in secondary school was a chore to me, i don't want it to happen again. It is just so hard to keep up the momentum but deep inside i knew the adrenaline in my blood is running. I miss Su En, Munyee, Averie, Wu Jing & Muzna. When is the 6 ace stars gonna meet? Su En, Mun yee& Muzna is Poly. Averie in Philipines & Wu Jing in Australia. I miss you guys so Hard. I'm hard up to tell alot of things to you. My beverly hills friends jackie, hannah, alan, harry, paul, seong jin & jodie. I promise to meet up with you guys soon ya!!! I know i've been rejecting all your invitations and party. Not forgetting my ite nitec friends Mas, Rais, Sathish, Aisyah, Karen, Sya you guys also asked to me numerous times to go out. One of the main reason i'm stuck is bcos, i got so many commitments. Muay Thai competition is next week, tue-sat. Choir competition is on the 21st, then i got my interact club. My band in Singapore Winds symphony, i need to prepare the pieces- flight of the bumble SOLO.
Mon- S'pore Winds Symphony
Tues-Choir & then Muay thai
Wed-Muay thai second round
Thursday-Choir
Fri-Band
Sat-Recording & then Muay thai
Sun-Recording
Oh my!!! Then my recording on next sunday, have yet to practice. I need to study somemore for ILT. 6 commitments in  a week. Which teenagers does that? Oh ya i forget frisbee soon i reckon. Then i need to work soon, cause staying @ home is so boring. I swear plus it makes me gain weight. My ITE buddies are busy with YOG, i'm busy with other things. Wonder when FAMILYC is going to hang out & camwhore??
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How i wish i could turn back the Time...

In Life you have too much mistakes, too much that it is actually eroding part of your brain, your mindset & your heart. How sad is that? I told myself umpteen times to braced myself, be a stronger person. I have to put up a fake smile,laugh daily just to make myself contented. What is wrong with me?? Soon i will be having primary school gathering & the saddest thing plus the most demoralising thing...all my primary school mates are in JCs & Polys. How??? Shit you la Ida!! Last time secondary don't want to study properly! Play & Play & Play. Now you upset for what??!! I Wish i could turn back the time, study properly...go sec 5 then poly. My friend in FB added me, so i accepted & then i post his wall how are you doing? He didn't reply. What the _ _ _ _ . Then ok its fine, then his friend from JC ask him how is he doing, and then he reply as if there is no tommorrow. Bloody _ _ _ _.

I kept telling to myself, i have so much mistakes that it actually takes maybe 10 years for me to repent. I wish i could have not done those mistakes. I was wrong. I should have study hard. Now study hard also Higher Nitec Cert!! The rest all Diploma while i'm still doing Higher Nitec. How sad it is?

If it happens one day, i was caught up with problems...will you be there???
If it happens one day, i quit upon myself...will you be there???

2 years pls make it pass fast. Allah pls help me to find a solution to settle my worries & issues.


Me + You = IdaSyar

Pls don't put an end for this

Cheryl say her face so Cock in FB but i think this pic is Georgeous.

The story tells it all

The Charlie's Angel

At Clementi...

I miss how we are so close to the DO RE MI

You Girls are my 3rd Fucking Best!!!

Love Cheryl old hairstyle & Jassy

The Act Cute girl!!

Firstly i Admit. I pon school again & i'm not happy about this. Went home so late due to choir plus my house far from school, that is the most annoying part. I need to change 3 times!@##$%^&*how annoying right!!!

I have a confession to make for my cliques in school. DO you all realise we are drifting so far apart. Cheryl i know you upset about Lenny about LPD project. I can understand babe, plus i'm so sorry if i have not been to help you, cheryl. Maybe lenny has issues with how we are going to organise it. Jas & Demi, seemed like i'm ignoring you. Am I?? We used to be so close & i miss the times how i disturb you Jas, kept fake2 promise that i'll never do it again. Demi, so sorry if i didn't buy for you birthday present. I was busy with my commitments. I didn't even do anything for you. So kindda upset & i treat you only $0.80 at co-op. Sorry ya!! Will do something for you quick. Cheryl its been ages since we go out together, we used to hang out with Sobbina during holidays. I really appreciate the times we had together.

I hope we won't put an end to our friendship. I want the Adrenaline running non-stop. The endless fun & camwhoring we used to had to continue. And guys pls focus more on your studies okay. Stop FBking all the time. ILT coming up soon & BEV test. Ace for A ya!!!:) I'm here to help if you need me. I got notes also for ILT, ask if you need.

SWIMMING!!!

In a while we going to have swimming lessons!!! So excited about it...actually not really. I got so much things to do anyway. Plus today is my 2nd day of CCA!!! Excited or not. Anyway i pon school alot of times bcos of sickness & stuffs. Maybe i also pon for tmr. Tmr got BEV test, and i'm freaking unprepare. After all the problems i have to faced on my own. This sucks big time. I hope i can overcome everything. Ya allah ya tuhan ku, pls make me strong just for this time. I really need you to guide me the path.

G Double O Morning People

Woke up early hur today, well my mum asked me to accompany her to Chinatown, i was just to lazy to go. But she didn't complain. So here i am lying down using lappy. I could have slept alittle bit longer but she woke me and now i can't get back to sleep. Not coming to school tmr,my leg injury is preety bad, looks like i'm on a 4 days, 4 nights holidays at home sweet home resort. That feelings is awesome. Stay at home, and do my own revision. Stared at the 4 walls. Eat chocolates bars. I miss PHYONE!!! XOXOXOXOXO
Plus not just PHYONE!!! I miss the 8 wonderful girls who always filled my school days with laughter and contentment. SERI, LENNY, FIDIANA, SYAZ, CHERYL, DEMI, FISH, JASLYN.
You babes are IRREPLACEABLE.
Hmm, today i'm going to go SWIMMING , JUST Like BLURP BLURP!!
Alright TA~

I think i need to fill the vacant hours i have to be with you. I think you are special to me. I think you're the best i ever met. I wish you were here to see the best and proudest moments of me. I wish i had spent more time with you. I wish you i could learn how to cherish you as much as i cherish my close ones. I wish you were here right beside me gazing at the stars and making wishes together with me. I wish i love you more. I wish i had more money so i could make a difference and fulfill your wishes. I wish i could make you more proud. I wish i know what's happening to your feelings to make you extra happy. I don't want to see you shed any more tears i don't want to see you cry because of me. I love you though daddy have not been around to make me smile, you know best how to cheer me up. I want to spent more time with you. You're the best mummy ever!!! You cooked delicious food for me, find the things that i've misplaced, treat me to good, wearable clothes. I know sometimes you are angry over my actions, i wish i was a better daughter and i'm sorry for what i've done. I'll listen to you more. I want you to know deep inside me heart how great you are. I want to tell the whole what awesome mother you are. At some moments you feel like killing me but i know you don't mean it and always there are some ways which you redeemed it. Love you MUMMY!!!MAK!!!MOTHER!!!IBU!!!

MUAY THAI PSSSTTTT

Had muay thai in the morning, unlike usual days, i fell and tripped plus my ankle was being kicked by this freaking crazy competitor. SO scary i can't walk but boyfie helped me up and stuffs. Mass Massage on my legs, i feel so blessed to have him as my boyfie. Oh well she kicked and it was swollen at my thighs there. BLoody ....Got MC so i'm gonna miss my girls

You will still be my FUCKING BEST!!!!

BORED

Just now i went to fullerton boat house that's why i pon school again. Haha like 4 times in a month. Makes people think i'm a rebel kid. Oh whatever with that. And!!!!Took cab to boat house and i say to tazi driver, uncle 3 fullerton road, boat house. Uncle was like " fullerton at where ah???you tell me???" Me" pffft,rolling my eyes...uncle is at fullerton hotel there just opposite the merlion at floating stadium there". Uncle" oh oh oh you tell me which way to go ah, ah...okay". Me" am i given an option??( in my heart i was like just let me drive the taxi ya, u sit down and i'll show you around.)Oh my...why am i always having that kind of taxi driver.

I was selected for CHOIR in school. After much audition and stuffs, Yesterday practice was okay la, not bad. I was kindda upset that Wani didnt get in. She puts lots of effort compared to me.

I hope that Allah will make me realized of a better me soon, a modest one. I hope Allah guides me by my side and tell me to do the righteous things and stood out being humble amongst the rest. I hope Allah guides me to a path and help me to stay out of trouble. I hope Allah guide me with the correct company i'm in. I hope Allah will give me a leaway to solve my problem. Please make me realized all the wonderful things around me

CAMWHORING with DSLR

Ola!!! How you guys doing??? Oh well, i'm fine over here...though i got far too many problems to handle. I hope i can cope. SO many committments. Band, Interact club, Choir, muay thai and plus frisbee i guess. Me & syar are getting better day by day so he is to Phyone. Oh well he better be. Is so hard to be in a relationship. Single is somehow better i think. Oh ya, yesterday the whole LC camwhore. Yummy!! finally we camwhored. See, is so hard for me to let go of my lovely classmates, they are made up of nice people and i hope this bonding and spirit will go on forever. Cliques is somehow seperated i realized, but i'm gonna bring it back. Hope none of you are making enemies out of each other ya, and if you realized we haven't been hanging out as a cliques, maybe we're too busy with projects and committments. I hope we still spare some time with each other ya!! Wonder how that Sobbina bitch going???We go photohunting one day okay!! Will bring our DSLR and take as many photos as we want. I miss Phyone every minute, every second of my life. We are so obsessed to each other, i'm much more obsessed to you than my boyfriend. We going to hang out tonight ya!






More photos on Facebook.
I miss you all my lovely pals!!

ILT!!!!

Hell yeah, i've completed for unit 1 notes. Im not going to continue further. I'm so effing tired. FIrstly happy birthday to my crazy small bully sister. Finally she is 12. After much consideration i've decided not to quit. Oh well today, family day, went to Marina Bay sands. Since it was my small sis birthday big sis treat us for everything. Yum and then i rushed home to do ILT notes. and then use lappy. Finally get to update blog, i'm so lazy. I went swimming yesterday with small sis cause she was pestering me when i had my afternoon nap. Then i dragged myself to pool swam a few laps and then got tired went home, continue notes. Muay that competition coming soon. Need lotsa practice plus ILT common test. I don't know why i am having this ILT rush. I wonder....chat with sayang and phyone on msn. Sayang told me not to quit school and i told phyone about it. She agreed only if we get to meet like everyday. I miss her lot. Yes phyone, i want to tell you no matter what linah and shaf did to you, i will stand by you. I cherished all the times we stood and fall together. And sayang chris thanks for being there when i need you, despite all your problems you had. I appreciate that. Cheryl ang mo kio & Fi & Seri & Lenny thanks for your advise, it turned me abit older and wiser. I'm not going to waste it and i'm going to turn it to another opportunity. I want to be the top student. I dont care, i going to mug daily and make it a golden nugget. Yeah baby, golden nugget. I will be a better person, im doing everything step by step and hopefully it goes according to my plan. Alright thats it for now. Gonna stop for now. TA!

KIA ORA!!! Feeling abit moarish right now. Award Ceremony was awesome. Took photos with my teachers and all. Met some new friends and talked to them. Seriously i have issues with ITE. I don't know why but is just the feelings is not there. I want the feeling like when i was in nitec at that point of time. My class LC is fun but still lacking of something within our friendship, i don't know if i should elaborate about this. I might be taking Diploma in Mass Comm with phyone, not bcos we are best friends, is because i always wanted to take that course badly and seriously this has not been working out for me that well. I Believe everything is possible, i'm not quitters or something but ITE, woah that is some hook which has issues a darn big one. Then after Dip i can migrate and think about my future, working overseas or something i got to start some where somehow. So right now, i'm buffering. The mass lecturer in school is definitely not working out with bunch of monkeys which is essentially not neccessary in every lesson. Annoying plus the lecturers, blah blah blah, i'm slacking...what!!!! i know i fucking screwed up the presentation, so what now!! you gonna shoot us in the next presentation, screw u back la, molester.
I need to start afresh, new friends, new school, new bags, new shoes, new phone, new lappy, new lecturers, more muay thai & ultimate frisbee and singing. Ya that's the new me. I'm not gonna freaking bother about who u are and don't say i'm arrogant cause you know what i don't care.

Hey whatz up!!!!!!!!First thing first, i haven't been blogging recently. My desktop and laptop spoiled again. So what now, i have to used a retard computer so annoying. Anyway the chalet was awesome except for some retard and spoilers. I guess Familcy definitely have lots of fun. I don't know why people got pissed when i told them that no outsiders are allowed. Am i wrong to say that. Like wth!!! i really tink u have issues. Just bcos syaz brought her BF along to pass the DVD player u got pissed. I think u really have issues. Still dare to wrote in facebook. So inhuman. Bloody hell. Spoiled my mood for today. Well getting back to the chalet topics. We guys have so much fun that i reckon this is the best chalet we ever have, though i didnt get to Barbeque and eat all the bbq food. The marinated chicken that seri made was awesome. Well i wanna thank & hakeem who i think made my day during the 3 days at chalet, i picked up new skills like gambling and i won quite a few thanks to the gambling buddies, cheryl, demi,jas & alfian. $35 siakk!!! happy la, but that money not halal so eventually i spent it on bowling. Finally i know how to gamble seh. Excited seh. Bowling was wickedly awesome with the guys and i really suck @ bowling and i'm gonna go out with syar to play bowling next week, i wonder how it is gonna be. Alfian,seri,lenny & dayat have definitely got talent for this. Good for you guys and i'm gonna keep working on it:)

After chalet, went home changed and bathed and go out with Phyone,jacquelyn,adam,nickie, christopher and Danny. My second awesomeshit cliques. Never failed to wack up and spiced my day. Love you all. We went dempsey ben&jerry for ice-cream,lunch @ culina and drink and spillage @ harry's. Fun and i wanna do that often, but how i wish i could do that with familcy. Hopefully we could do that kind of activities soon. Gonna be a busy busy weekend for me but i really hope and pray everything's gonna be okay. I need to rest for now till then i will blog again.

Peace out
Wahidah:)

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Wahidah
13/04/1992







You are Black Panther, who can show rich affection and possess warm motherly tenderness.
You are not cautious person, and are passionate enough to express yourself openly to lead life.
You tend to be hard on yourself, but are kind and devoted to other people.
You prefer to have a career, and play an active part in the society.
You possess strong self-confidence and beliefs.
You put your passing ideas immediately into action.
Therefore you give an impression of daring and person with strong driving force.
You don't bargain so much, and the way in which you act according to your instinct and passion gives feminine attraction.
You use your endless dreams as driving force.
Once you decide on something, you are extremely determined to complete it, and don't care about the public opinions.
It may be good for you to have some kind of modesty and self-examination.
You have great artistic and beauty sense.
You may be suited to have a career as a fashion designer or interior coordinator.
You tend to please everyone besides your family.
Towards your own family, you are hard and nagging.
When you get married you will turn out as a wife who takes control of the household.


Haha. 99.9 percent is true. how bout urs?

I miss my baobei's

I miss the girls badly, i can't sleep without composing a song in my heart for them. I know is kindda weird. My BF is still on the phone with me, haiz is already 4.08am, this soccer season killing me. I want to go to balcony and talk but i'm petrified if i see anything that i dont want to see. I felt like a good daughter yesterday, staying @ home helping my mum with chores and going to have breakfast with small sis and mum and head to NTUC. I think this is one of the best moments, i love quality time with mum...i get to pour all my sorrows to her. Dad's at home and he was wearing the shirt that i bought for his birthday.

I'm excited for next week, hmm monday morning with D cause he wants to play badminton with me, is gonna be early morning for me.
I want to go karaoke, anybody in???
Tuesday,brother asked me go IKEA cause we wanna home reno! So excited, new paints and new appliances. Home makeover= i like(Y)
Wednesday, LC chalet haha, happy seh. plus excited like hell yeah!!!Wonder what i'm gonna do there? hope no one gonna fall and roll ya:) jkjkjk.

God have been really nice to me, i appreciate all the changes and the people that i've met. Its seems like a dream that i'm looking at but it is reality when i touched it. I met friends like cheryl,seri,demi,lenny,fi,wani,hidayah,syaz,nab,jas,alfian,ahmad,dayat,li jun,fish,sobbina,danial,and my LC mates.
Oh god, please protect them and may they make wise decision for whatever they are doing. Make them a better person & better attitude and caring towards each other.
I really learnt to be grateful this year and i'm gonna changed to be a better person.


Okie dokie is kindda late right now, i want to sleep and go for morning jog tmr. Woohooss!

The official ceremony of my blog

I seriously bored at home so yeah, i guess i'm killing time right now.
BF asked me watch soccer, not in the mood...sorry sayang.
I'm going shopping with Bro and Swimming with him.
He promised 2 tops and 1 bottom, oh well i'm waiting!!! I want to goshopping with him. Swimming 1st thing in the morning. I can't sleep, i really can't. Mummy sleeping quietly if she walks to the hall runway she gonna screwed me for using com at night. Haha, house rules can be so sickening but without it is so annoying. I have officially deleted my old blog. Sick of it, time to open a new sketch book and draw another shape.